Friday, June 27, 2008

A Wager on Truth

So yesterday I was reading some of the work of Blaise Pascal, a French Mathematician and thinker from around the time of his more famous contemporary Rene Decartes. He is most famous for what has become know as Pascal's Wager which I think brings a unique perspective to the question of truth. Pascal believe that empirical (scientific) knowledge alone was not sufficient to finding truth. At some point faith would have to take over if we truly wanted to find what is really real. He called faith a great wager which we have to take. We can wager that God is either real or not real. If we choose to wager on his existence and we are correct then we have much to look forward to in heaven, and if we are wrong then the only loss is of earthly desires which are not important anyway. However, he argued, if we choose to believe God is not real and we are right, there is no consequence good or bad. However, if we are wrong, the consequence is incredibly great. Therefore, Pascal argues, while we cannot prove God is real, the safe bet (wager) is to believe in him whole-heartedly.

I enjoyed reading his arguments, it is good to hear someone acknowledge that we have no hard evidence of God's existence. For me it is difficult to take a "leap of faith," like so many evangelistic Christians encourage us to do, when there is so little to sway me to do so. I like Pascal's reasoning, it gives me a good reason, other than blind faith, to believe. While I lived in Las Vegas for over a year, I never played a single game of poker, blackjack, roulette, or craps. Why? Because the odds of winning aren't so good and if you do lose, you lose a lot. I'm a penny slot man. If you win, you can have a really good return, if you lose, at least you lost something that isn't worth all that much.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Food for Thought

Going try to keep this shorter today. Just thought I would throw a few quotes out there that I found incredibly intriguing...

--"Here is one man less wise than I. In all probability neither of us knows anything worth knowing; but he thinks he knows when he doesn't, whereas I, given that I don't in fact know, am at least aware I don't know." - Socrates

--"I like your Christ; I do not like your Christians." - Mahatma Ghandi

--"I am my own church." - Thomas Paine

--"Is something good because the gods say it is, or do the gods say it is good because it is?" - Socrates (I like his so much, here's another one)

--"Whatever lacks intelligence cannot move towards an end, unless it be directed by some being endowed with knowledge and intelligence; as the arrow is shot to its mark by the archer." - Thomas Aquinas

--"An objective uncertainty, held fast through appropriation with the most passionate inwardness, is the truth." - Soren Kierkegaard

--"I call an animal, a species, or an individual corrupt when it loses its instincts, when it chooses, when it prefers, what is disadvantageous for it." - Friedrich Nietzsche

Enojy...

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

A Quick Blog of Clarification

The ideas, thoughts and questions presented in this blog are not necessarily what I call my truth. They are simply ideas, thoughts and questions. I intentionally write them in the first person perspective in hopes that they will more deeply permeate not only the minds of my readers but of my own as well. Questioning is a good thing; might as well not be half-assed about it.

"I Crap Bigger than You"

Remember Curly from City Slickers? That was one of his more colorful one-liners in the movie. Jack Palance's character was on the surface a rough tough mountain man with no more an aptitude for deep thought than the cattle he drove. But later in the movie Curly lets Billy Crystal's character in on the meaning of life...

"This," Curly says, holding up his forefinger.
"What's that," asks Crystal's Character.
"That's what you have to figure out."

What Curly meant was that the meaning of life is different for each one of us and it is up to us to find out what that one truth is. This is exactly where I feel like I have been for the last few weeks; trying to find my one truth.

Last night I had a conversation with a good friend of mine. He also grew up in a Christian environment so I wanted to get his perspective on Christianity and see what he believed. I wanted to see what his one truth was and why. He talked about his core values which I liken to Curly's one truth. In the end of the movie Billy Crystal's character discovers that his one truth or core value is his family. However, my friend took it a step further than Curly. He talked about his three basic core values. Like me, he had a good family environment growing up so his first core value was also family. His second was the knowledge that he can accomplish anything and the third was a belief in a higher power.

Not one core value but three which work hand in hand shaping who we are. I think that these are the core values that most people can relate with, and I would venture to say, that if they aren't in tune with these values, they are missing out on an important part of life.

Family is key. We are shaped by those who are close to us and we create our reality based our the system of morals and beliefs they bring us up in. This is not to say that we are always shaped exactly in their image but more as a causal effect of their image. Even those who had a poor family environment should not reject family as a core value. It is still and will be an integral part of their life. To push it out would be to shut off a part of themselves.

The second core value is my favorite because it makes me feel free! "I can do anything I want." When he said this, he didn't mean throw caution to the wind and act on every impulse, throwing morality out the window. He meant he is in control. He can accomplish whatever he chooses. This for me resonates deeply because the biggest frustration I have had with Christianity is that it teaches us to hold back our free will and follow the path that God has chosen. Even if that path will make us unhappy in this lifetime, we will gain ultimate happiness when we go to heaven. Well, what if Christianity is wrong?

The law of attraction states that I can shape the universe in my favor; that I can use the focus of my thoughts to bring me what I want in life. If you look at this broadly, it seems silly at first. But think about this... Have you ever woken up in the morning and stubbed your toe on the foot of the bed, cut yourself shaving or spilled hot coffee on yourself and said "Oh great, its going to be a long day."??? What did that day turn out like? Probably a day you wouldn't wish on your worst enemy. Try waking up in the morning every day this week and make you first thought be "This is going to be the best day!" You could even write it on your mirror with lipstick of dry erase maker. If you focus your energy everyday on being positive and thinking about how good every minute is going to be, you WILL have a good week. Try it and let me know how it goes.

The third core value is a belief in a higher power and I will segue with an interesting point my friend made last night when I was talking about the law of attraction. Christians say God made man in his own image... What if that image included the ability to shape the universe as he did when he created it? When he said that a light bulb went on. I firmly believe that something more powerful than we can imagine created the universe and I believe that it is God. Some may call it something different but for me that is the image that works (probably because of the influence of core value #1). My belief in this higher power is that of the Deists perspective. God created the universe and set it in motion and it is so perfect that it does not need his intervention in it. George Washington called God a "Grand Clock Maker" and other Deists have coined the phrase "Absentee Landlord." However, with the comment my friend made, the pieces are coming together for me. I think that God may have made a universe so intricate and unique that there are universal laws which will always be in effect. Some are the obvious ones like the law of gravity and the law of relativity, some may not be so evident like the law of attraction.

So here is how it all comes together... God created the universe and set it in motion billions of years ago starting with the "big bang." His plans began to take effect over time creating the earth, life and eventually that life evolved to the dawn of mankind (no by God's direct hand but as a result of the plans he set into motion "in the beginning"). He intended us to be in his image including our ability to utilize the laws of the universe to shape our own reality (this includes both the usual laws of science and the law of attraction). Our families give us a starting point for how we will view the universe and that starting point will always be a huge part of our being. Ultimately, however, it is our responsibility to find our truth and apply each our the three core values to help us find happiness and live a virtuous life. If we do those things we will have fulfilled God's intention for his grand design and we will someday join him in heaven.

Sorry for the extremely long blog but hopefully it makes some sense and bring out some things you hadn't thought about. I may very well be wrong and am still stewing around these new ideas myself, but I firmly believe I am living and thinking the way God intended me to. Your feedback is always welcome...

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Ironmen, Allergies, a Promise Fulfilled and Crazy-Ass Neighbors

So I haven't posted for several days now; Here's a quick recap of the last week. Thursday morning, I started my yearly side job at the Ford Ironman Coeur d Alene pushing Power Bar Products and handing out samples. I am always amazed at the people that do these things. I think with a little training I could complete any one leg of the triathlon (2.4 Mile Swim, 110 Mile Bike and 26.2 Mile Run), but to do them all back to back seems absolutely insane. It was a fun but tiring change of pace from the usual office work.

Allergies Suck! On Thursday night we took the dogs out for a quick run in the field and as they ran through you could see the clouds of grass pollen rising into the air. This should have been my first sign to turn back, but loving my pups as I do and enjoying the walk with my lovely wife, I said "I'll be fine...."

By the time we got home, I was sneezing uncontrollably and couldn't breathe through my nose. Every time I tried to clear my nostrils out, I set off another fit of sneezes. After a heavy dose of Benedryl I stayed up waiting for it to kick in... It never did. At one point I contemplated going to the ER. I didn't sleep much that night and had a very long day at the Ironman, followed by a double header with my church league softball team. I got home around 9pm and was completely wiped. A wind storm on Saturday evening kicked up the dust and the pollen and an even worse asthma attack ensued through Sunday morning.

And then came the crazy-ass neighbors. Ally and I woke up Sunday morning with the intent to move the hot tub we had delivered, from the driveway to the back yard over about 100 feet of grass, dirt and gravel (I had a special desire to get it done because I promised her that if we moved back to the northwest, we would buy a hot tub). We had moved it about five feet before the wheel of the pallet jack became stuck and we were at a stand still. Then the neighbors two houses down, who had been drinking vodka since 9am the day before and who Ally and I were cursing the night before due to their blaring music and loud, drunken shouting, saw our struggles and offered to help. About a half hour later we had the hot tub in place and couldn't have done it without their help.

They also invited us to their BBQ that evening which we reluctantly accepted but ended up having a pretty good time and some really good food. I just feel sorry for the neighbors because for some reason they felt it necessary to have the music in the house up so high that we had to shout to hear each other as we sat outside.

I came home determined to have the hot tub up and running by the end of the night so as to fulfill my promise to my bride. After work the next day we got to enjoy our first soak in the new tub.

What a whirlwind of a few days, but there was good to come of it. I had gained a renewed motivation to workout, a great appreciation for our quiet neighbors, a sweet new hot tub, and... an addiction to Zyrtec.

Hopefully now as things calm back down, I can focus and get some quality thoughts out through this blog...

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

I'm a Wuss

I had a nice drive out to Kellogg, Idaho today. I always listen to ESPN radio on the way. Today Mike Tirico and Scott Van Pelt where talking about Tiger Woods and his impressive win at Torrey Pines in the US Open. It was a performance filled with classic Tiger moments such as the 15 foot birdie putt he sunk on the 18th hole to force the 18 hole playoff or the birdie on 18 in the playoff to force a sudden death playoff. It was impressive enough even if all you saw was the highlights. But it was more impressive if you listened and watched intently. All of us who watched any of the US Open this past weekend could visibly see the pain Woods was in. He had knee surgery not long before the Open and hadn't fully recovered and due to that injury, he had hardly practiced leading up to the Open. After each shot he hunkered over in pain, one time even dropping to his knees. The announcers kept talking about his knee not being 100% recovered, but today we found out it was far worse than anyone knew.

Apparently, about four weeks ago his doctors discovered that he had re-injured his surgically repaired knee to the point where he needed ACL surgery. Then two weeks ago they found a stress fracture on his tibia (lower leg)... Dude had a broken leg!!

The knee was injured worse than before he had the initial surgery and HIS LEG WAS BROKEN! He just played 91 holes of golf in the past five days and HIS LEG WAS BROKEN! He just walked the equivalent of about 8 miles and HIS LEG WAS BROKEN! He just won the US Open, which is regarded as the most difficult golf tournament in the world and HIS LEG WAS BROKEN!!

Woods said this win meant more to him than any of his previous 13 major wins; now we know why.

I have to say, what an incredible iron will this man has. His doctor reported has told the media that he advised Tiger to stay off his knee for at least six weeks upon discovering the fracture. Woods told him that he was going to play in the Open and he was going to win it. And then he did just that.

and...

HIS LEG WAS BROKEN!!

I have a lot of work to do in the yard at home tonight and was dreading it because of the massive blister I have on my hand.

I'm a wuss!!

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Consumed

Not having any especially deep thoughts this morning. A little consumed by the pile of work I have in front of me. It sure comes in waves. Most of it is annoying paper pushing which hopefully I will have some help with soon but until then I have to deal with it. Just trying to keep as positive and as excited about the things happening in my life as possible.

I'm looking forward to getting home and it is only noon! I can't wait to see my beautiful wife annnd cute little wiggle-butts.

Plus I have so many projects waiting at home that I can' wait to work on. Projects at home bring me peace I think; good thing there is no shortage of them.

You know what else is bringing me peace? This blog thing... Go figure...

Back to work...

Monday, June 16, 2008

Live in the Moment

So my wife just read me this really cool passage out this book called The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success. It had something to do with acceptance. Not accepting others beliefs, not accepting your short comings, not even accepting you life as it is. More specific than any of those things. ACCEPT THIS MOMENT. Wow! You wouldn't think we would need to be reminded of that. It's like a George Carlin euphamism; you never thought about it, but when you hear it, it is so true you can't believe you didn't think of it yourself.

This moment is exactly as it should be; a culmination of every moment of your life leading up to it. To fight it would be to fight the power of the universe, the will of God, karma, first cause, or whatever else you believe causes things to be the way they are. Regarless of your faith and philosophy on life (or lack thereof) it is an important remider to all of us to accept the THIS moment and work (in whatever way our beliefs guide us) to shape the NEXT.

Birth of an Ocean

I wrote this back in college and have always liked it. I wrote it on behalf of a roommate for his Pacific Northwest History class. He got an "A." I may be just a titch partial, but I think this is "A+" material.

The Birth of an Ocean

In the depth of winter, snow falls softly
In the high mountains of British Columbia.
Floating at the will of the wind, each tiny flake falls,
Capping the blue-gray peaks towering above.

The snow pack continues to build, deeper and deeper it grows
Through the first months of the New Year.
Continuing to build, bit by bit, each intricate flake,
Awaiting the sun’s rays to set them free again.

A glowing beam pierces the billowing clouds,
And shines upon the white desert below.
A faint glimmering drop forms from nothing,
And begins to slide deliberately down the icy mountain face.

The drop gains followers as it makes its way downward.
Each of its successors traveling at the same leisurely pace,
And then slightly faster and faster until...
Their individuality is lost.

The drops merge to form one long infinite trail of fluid,
Flowing, ever so elegantly, through its adolescence.
The white desert of its early days has now passed,
Giving way to the lush hues of the evergreen forests.

The narrow stream feeds off the pleasant scents,
And comforting quietude of the surrounding woodlands.
It thrives and grows as trout, crawdads, and mayflies abound.
The stream widens to a babbling brook, a calm creek and then...

A raging river gathers its power,
Barreling through the flat plains below the mountains,
And around the rolling hills in its path.
It cuts as it travels searching relentlessly for the path to freedom.

The majestic river swells wider and wider,
Masking its might beneath the platitude of its surface.
It seems almost weakened by its journey, but no,
It gains strength and burrows further down into its gorge.

Cutting at the canyon walls the rivers narrows and speeds again,
Appearing to have caught the faint scent of liberation.
It races around tight corners in seemed chaos yet undeniable power,
And then, realizing the challenge ahead, relaxes, conserving energy for a final push.

Its destination within contemplation, the river widens with intensity.
In this final leg of its long journey, it reflects back to its humble beginnings.
How long ago it seems that the inevitable vastness it was about to achieve
Was nothing more than a distant fantasy.

And finally, freedom, liberty, and ultimate enormity.
It had reached the long-sought childhood dream.
The one desire that had harnessed the immense forces of its nature.
Finally, the birth of an ocean.

BLOGS ARE DUMB

I always thought blogs were dumb. Probably because the first one I ever read consisted of "OMG he so totally wants me," "Do you think my butt looks big in that outfit I wore today?" or other meaningless crap. It seemed like the author was just bored at work and wasting their day away.

Now, five years later, I am finnding there is another more meaningful side to blogging and I am giving them another chance.

After reading some friends and family's blogs, I can see the allure. What an outlet for creativity, fleeting thoughts, random humor, and a release from the grind of daily life. While I love my job, it leaves me little room to express creativity and I rarely have a chance for a deep thought. Such an opportunity to get these thoughts out while they are fresh is an exciting prospect.

So we'll see where this goes...